I'm A Curve Not A Line

I Am A Girl With Curves 

I would much rather stay that way if I am being honest. Now there is nothing wrong with a skinny chick... but I would much rather be a curve than a straight line. Do I love every part of my body? No... but I love myself. 

This is not to bash someone who is thin... LORD KNOWS... once upon a time I wanted to be thin... I wanted to be like the woman in magazines and movies.. they always seem to be so confident in their body. It wasn't until I was older that I realized that they weren't and I was more confident in my body then most of them. I am not everyone's cup of tea.. and that is ok...I am just like every other woman on the planet, some days are better than others. Some day I want to be thin.. and other days I'm ok with my body.   

Of course I want to be healthy... and I think that this is the great myth of plus size woman.. is that were not healthy... Maybe I am not in the best health out there.. but every day I try and make better choices for my body. 

The hardest part about being plus size is other peoples opinions... your really can not do much with out someone making a comment. I spent a lot of time as a teenager wearing a hoodie and jeans because I was plus size and insecure about what people were saying. Not too many people were being nice to me. 

You know, I get the normal fat shamming comments. Gym was the WORST... teenage boys and girls can be ruthless... I couldn't run without holding my breast down. My thighs jiggled and touched, people starred.. and not because they thought I was hot.. but because I was plus size. 

** side note.. if we went to highschool together... and you were the one judging me... I hope that you've grown and are more accepting of people.**

Needless to say... I went into adulthood with body issues and then I got pregnant lol. Talk about a body identity crisis!! 

They Will Love The Things You Hate

Someone once told me that the things that you hate about yourself someone else will love. I can seriously tell you that this is beyond true. They will also love you as you change... because lets face it.. we change... alot. I know I have.. my body has gone through the ringer...it has done some amazing things and then it has also not been able to "hang". 

I spent so much time being mad at my body... do things that it can and can't do.... slowly but surely i've done things that I didn't think I would be able to do. 

I took a pole fitness class, it was so hard, but the things I was able to do is incredible. I met other incredible woman who had the same bodies as me... we cheered for each other, we cried, we yelled... we built each other up!





I have good days and bad days... but it will get better.It always does. The people in my life love me. Keith Loves me...PERIOD. 

 Bottom line...I would rather be CURVE than be a straight line. 

Love Ya💕

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