I Am A Failure

That is right, you read that right, i'm a failure. Well maybe not in the way that you think, but I am.

 I have failed myself. So much more than I truly wish to admit!

How you may ask?

Well, i failed myself with all of my self doubt.

Ugh, self doubt is the worst. I constant think that what i am doing isn't right. It's either not good enough, or dumb, or not going to work. Like this blog for instance, I started this in JUNE 2019.... yes... JUNE... and here I am in March of the next year(2020), with a blog that had one post to it.. and I never published it... because.. of self doubt...

If everyone around me can see how great and wonderful I am, then why is it so hard for me to do the same? Why can I not see that I am a complete and total bad ass boss lady who deserves everything her( hidden) heart desires want?

So you see... i'm a failure to myself. I have failed my heart. I can not tell you how sad I am as a write this. To tell my truth and set it out into the universe is so intense, but I don't want to fail myself again.
So here it is. No more. I think that with everything that is happening in today's society, that I was given the push that i needed. I am here.. writing this blog entry.. and i'm going to publish my blog tonight.

If your reading this right now... leave me some love down below and let me know.

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