Tanja... and all my other names

Yes, you read that right, my name is Tanja... with a "J" in it, my mother liked the name Tanya, and my biological father wanted to make it different and add a J to it. Also, it is notable that my mother also gave my siblings common names with weird spellings. Needless to say, I wont be seeing my name on a coke bottle anytime soon.

As interesting as that is I am sure, my other names that I have been given are the more important part of this story... well... come to think of it.. its not-- but that story is for another time.

My other names are:
Mom- i have two kiddos. Carter is 9 almost 10. Alexis is 6(Turing 16 lol)
Employee- I work for a small family owned  and operated company, and they are great.
Daughter- My mom is one of my closest friends. I can truly call her about close to anything and I will always get some type of answer, even if its not something that I always want to hear.
Fiance- This is a new one for me. Keith and I have been dating for almost 10 years, and he pop the question this past summer!





what can i say? All of these names are something else. I can tell you that I am on a journey of self discovery and I am beyond excited to see what names come next!

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