Turning 30 In Quarantine

The day after my Birthday and I have TONS to talk about!!
How can I start this post without recognizing the obvious... I turned 30 years old and it was the quarantine. For those of you living under a rock... right now our EARTH is trying to survive a pandemic known as COVID-19 or The Coronavirus... it is a respiratory virus that is very contagious. Because of this most of the state that I live in is shut down. We are in self quarantine going on almost 1 month already... and there is talk of it going on for much longer.

Any who... this is not about the virus, it is about me.. OF COURSE. My birthday this year was filled with a bit of reflection honestly. Having children so young has been difficult. I missed out on things in my twenties...it is ok, I love being a mom... but I can't help but think about my life the other way sometimes. Keith and I always say that we are prepping for 30. This age milestone seemed to be super important to us. After struggling for the last 10 years... things are finally starting to come together. I guess Keith and I are the turtle in the race... slow and steady and all.

This year all I had was my family.... my Fiance, my son and my daughter. Let me tell you, they really worked hard to make my day something special for me. On Saturday they threw me a birthday party for just us. It included grocery store sushi( which was not bad) and Chinese take out lomein and fried rice :) They also gave me my presents... which was nice! Keith has gotten so much better at give giving... anyone else significant others not so great at it? lol Well, it takes time. Keith says that his secret is that he started listening.... SERIOUSLY???  Who would of thought?

On Sunday we all hung out, Keith cooked dinner and I cleaned the house! It is what I wanted to do so it is ok.

Monday... the day that I have been prepping for. The time that I have been talking about... everything is leading up to this day... OK PAUSE

I know this seems dramatic, but this is seriously what is going on in my head.. I felt so much pressure on the age 30.

Now... back to the regular scheduled program..

Keith woke me up singing Happy Birthday, which made me feel good, it made me think of my childhood and my mother singing that to me as I woke up.... I of course worked... and then Keith and I made dinner together and of course there was cake. I was beyond happy with the end of the day.

I love the way my birthday ended... but it ended on questions. What is going to happen in the next 30 years? Hell, what is going to happen in the next 30 days?

what I have learned having a birthday during quarantine is that I can have a good time and the best time with the people who are closest to me. Literally giving me everything that I needed and wanted in one weekend.

Thank you Keith and My Kids for making my 30th birthday the best ever. I could honestly say that this was one of my favorite birthdays I have ever had.

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